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Thursday, July 28, 2005

On wed: guess wat! we got into the finals for netball!!! yesh! a grp with has NO netballers and the ONLi grp with enter into the finals without any netballers!! whahahaha... =x finals is on weds le.. so scare le... >.<>

Oso on wed: mi 2.4km i gt C le... ran like 16.03 if i nt wrong.. gt improve and quite happy le.. at least this time i never stop... >.<


snoww.
|9:45 PM|


Sunday, July 24, 2005

one week pass after mi so 'determine' mind.. guess wat.. haven started mi preparation yet.. pathetic rite.. haiz.. >.<

did our gp ppt on friday... guess wat.. we do too much le... >.<
netball competition is like on wed de.. so scared.. so worried.. haiz.. caz firstly dunno how to play lor... >.<

ran with pris and hm on thurs.. abt 2.2km non-stop.... wahahha... pro rite.... then on sat i ran alone at bedok stadium... die le.. without friends i'm so dead.. run abit then stop.. and especially alot of ppl was walkin lor! mi no determination at all.. *sob* luckily wed is running wif friends... we must jia you! hehe..

gt to catch up on mi times reading.. cause never read at all then now like gt 9 times i haven read yet! die rite.. so must read like one per day? haiz.. must try le.. or nt.. i subsribe jus to waste money.. so cannot cannot.. must read.... havin econs essay test on wed... luckily can bring in a piece of paper double sided.. hehe... pray can get gd gd marks... =x have to train miself to study like be4 10pm? caz i am like wasting alot of precious time be4 10pm stoning.... =x and blogging once a week nia.. hehehehe...


snoww.
|9:05 PM|


Saturday, July 16, 2005

no time to laze around
no time to say no mood
no time to eat
no time to sleep!
no time to watch tv
no time to go on msn, ermz.. maybe..=p
no time to rot around
no time to think there is lots of time
ok.. realli.. there is no time! jus 11 weeks to promos! and i realli mean 11 weeks.. minus away weekday and doing project and lazing around it is like 1 mth? or even less.. omg.... how?! i need to prepare.. i need to start real studying.. i need to concentrate in school! i need.. i need.. i jus need a will.. a life! a.. haiz.. i need a break.. but haiz.... tok abt tat after promos bah.. but now.. no matter what happens.. no matter how hard.. i need to perserver, spell something liddat bah.. wahhaha.. =x i realli need determination.. although i noe that the next few weeks.. it is gonna be like veri relaxing.. caz the pressure is nt on yet.. although i now oso cannot feel any pressure.. as i said be4 i dunno wat stress like.. ya so..now is mere determination bah.. must think of wat to do everyday.. must at least revise something everyday.. and last but nt least.. must.. read times! haha.. i go apply for times.. then like come 6 copies or more.. but i onli read one! gosh.. ok...cannot waste money rite..... hehe.... ok... must strive for the best no matter wat i do le... wat's pass is pass.. mi common test is over! mi o lvls is over! so yeah.. and dun forget mi promos the precentage is more... so yeah.... to be promoted or nt realli count on it! i cannot waste time on tv le... and oso on blog bah.. =x.. but will try to blog like in two weeks once? yeah.. something liddat bah.... will report abt mi progress! wahhaha... mi wan to be transparent.. unlike.. nkf.. opps... okey.. yeah... so wish mi luck! oh.. and especially for mi NAFA... so scare le.. at the end of july testing.. then i like burn midnight oil liddat.. now then start excerising.. i am nt a sports person.. hehe..

I joined netball competition! haha... ok.. nt realli i wanna join la.. but then.. as a tall person.. everyone sure want in the team rite.. haha.. jk jk... so yeah... mi class put mi name in so.. ya.. joining bah...... this one must wish mi more luck... cause hor.. i have had plenty bad experiences with ball... so quite scare of it.. so yeah.. must wish mi aiming veri gd.. then hor.. grow taller so easy throw ball in net and easy block ppl... haha.. i veri bad hor.. so tall le.. still wanna grow tall... to block ppl somemore.. =x monday practicing le... hope we are unite and realli enjoy it! hehhe...

hmmm... oh ya... times been quite smooth for mi pw... firstly i managed to get permission to visit swiss sch.. whahaha.. then now is pap kindergarten.. whahaha.. although the first few time ask them then they reject mi.. but finally a kind soul let us visit! whahaha.. so tues visiting.. but must pass the sch vp or something liddat.... then still gt the pink form... so wish mi luck! hehe..

and lastly... mi school gt oversea cip! and guess wat is go thailand le! whahahaa.. somemore is like build house and teach english... haha.. so fun! like it i'm nt wrong is 35 ppl or 30 ppl.. then must giv the teachers ur o lvl results and common test results.... then will be short listed and gt interview i think... but i realli wanna go le! hope mi friends oso wanna go bah... will be so fun! it is end of yr.. then $300 nia... for 12 days.. wahhahahha so happy liaoz... =x realli depends on mi friends.. caz i dun wan one person go nia... then will be like so lonely.... mi dun like lonely... so yeah... =x hehehe... wish mi luck oso.. hhaa like this time mi entry so many wish mi luck hor... lolx.... caz i reali need luck.. but most of all... and lastly must pray for mi.. haha... God bless!


snoww.
|3:30 PM|


Saturday, July 09, 2005

hmm.. recently i have collected back my results.. i jus want to say something 'bad', if mi class is readin this they would be sayin ur kidding or something liddat.. but realli.. it's jc and i could hav done better..

on friday i had mi chinese a lvl orals.. it was so difficult.. after this if i never saw the script of the orals in the earlier days i would hav believed mi friends and teachers would have bluff mi by sayin its easy.. i saw the scripts of the orals in the earlier days and it is realli veri easy.. but WHY! why does it hav to be on mi day when it gets so tough! i was like mumblin all the way through.. i feel so sad.. feel so disappointed with mi self...

after so much things hav happen.. i have onli one thing to say.. 'numb' i'm numb to all the things.. i like hav no feeling what so ever abt wat's going on.. what's with mi! i wanna feel sad, disappointed but i cant.. i jus feel empty.. like tat is nothin wrong... i remember that oral, they ask mi one ques.. how to reduce stress.. i did nt noe how to answer.. cause in the first place.. i have never felt stress be4.. or i shd put it i dun noe what is stress.. in life.. secondary, jc... everyone was like so stress here and there... but wat is stress realli.. i mean.. to mi.. if there is lots of work to do, it is like 'of course'.. we are going from pri to sec and to jc.. so there is of course changes.. then when we cannot finish or exams are so near.. then i hear ppl say stress.. but i still dun get it.. to mi they are like i hav lots of work to do.. or no sleep today or something liddat... but in life i have never realli felt stress be4.. weird rite.. i dun noe... i feelin numb now.. and life is like flashin pass mi..


snoww.
|3:19 PM|


Monday, July 04, 2005

ok... its been a veri long time since i hav blog.. like mi blog dieing le... haiz... no mood.. wat to do... many things have happen since i last blog.. holiday is GONE! common test is over.. (yeah!) schools back.. (Boo!! Boo!!) so the following weeks or maybe mths i will be studying.. doing presentation and lastly mi pw (which i dunno wat to do now)..

hmm... played and was veri busy during mi holidays.. keep on going out.... so never realli prepare well for the common test bah.. anyway... mi common test i die le! confirm! dunno why no one wanna believe mi.. boo hoo boo.. so sianz.... study so hard oso no use... haiz... and yesh.. NAFA..... like 3 weeks more?? omg.. i'm dead.. mi is so unfit... haiz.... must run le.. and do plenty of push ups.... why am i like nagging??

during this holiday i hav realise something important... tat time does nt wait for u! i mean it! we know it but we do not treasure it... time pass like nobody's business and now it is like july?? i started jc in like march and like 3 mths have gone and i feel it had been like less then a mth?? ok.. i'm so dead.. sometimes i dun even noe what i am doing... i love mi class alot.. and am enjoyin mi jc life except for the studyin part.. but besides tat yeah... at least i dun hav to worry abt wat cloths to wear.. gosh! so yeah.. i'm contented.. but there seems to be something missing... i dunno wat it is but jus tat missing part which can piece every part of the puzzle.. something liddat la... jus tat missing part.. argh! anyway i will nt think much caz haiz... tomor sch reopen le... i dun wan! go back sch!!! nonono!!! tomor period oso no gd le... i wanna be sick!!! argh.... ok.. sorri.. too naggy.. gp holiday hw essay haven do yet.. dun wanna do today.... so sianz.. anyway tomor gt project work 2 lessons.. i realli dun noe wat to do le... haiz...


snoww.
|11:54 PM|




Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you


Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming


No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
to be like me









To be hurt, To feel lost
To be left out in the dark

To be kicked, When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like


WELCOME TO MY LIFE











Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?


Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding


No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me










To be hurt, To feel lost
To be left out in the dark

To be kicked, When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like


WELCOME TO MY LIFE













No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like








To be hurt, To feel lost
To be left out in the dark

To be kicked, When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
(what it's like)






To be hurt, To feel lost
To be left out in the dark

To be kicked, When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like


WELCOME TO MY LIFE X3


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patricia
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